Lost

I have few words and fewer pictures will follow but I felt it important to sit down and start writing again. In March when COVID-19 hit, everything changed for me and so many others. “Normal” no longer exists. Education will forever be different. Some good & some bad but in the end, it’s the students who lose out. The beef industry & ranching has been filled with highs & lows yet it seems the industry is at odds with each other no matter what you want to discuss. Social media seems to be filled with anger and society seems to be moving further apart than coming together during these difficult times for everyone. I hit a roadblock. I lost my happy place, I lost my sense of purpose & desire. I just felt lost and overwhelmed like so many others and let a lot of these burdens get to me mentally, physically & spiritually. I stopped exercising, stopped reading, stopped writing and stopped doing so many other things that made me, me.

I recently watched a friend complete her very own 100 mile run & pray challenge during the month of July. She set out to run 100 miles in July and pray along the way. Pray for big things, little things, you, me or whatever else filled her heart. It was exciting to watch her progress daily and refreshing to see her accomplish this wonderful task. This single task helped remind me of the true joys in life and to not sweat the big things but enjoy the little things in life.

I’m not saying I’m going to go run 100 miles in August but I haven’t laced up my running shoes since March. I haven’t completed a single workout since March. I haven’t sat quietly in a room to read a good book since March. I haven’t attended a church service since March. I haven’t written what’s been on my heart since March. I think you get the picture here. I haven’t done a lot of things that brought me inner joy & happiness since March. I got sucked into the wrong vortex like so many of us did.

So it’s time to move forward. I’m not sure exactly what that plan looks like going forward at this time but it’s definitely time to get back to living life for me & my family and stop worrying about everything else. I hope you understand. So here’s to getting the life train back on the right track and suited up mentally and physically for whatever might be coming next.

So if you’re like me, find that happy place. Find what makes you, you and make it a great day. More importantly, don’t forget to tell someone I love you today!

Until next time, MB

One thought on “Lost

  1. Oh my friend, thank you for your honesty and openness! I think most of us have felt our world upended and it seems like it will never be the same again. But there are so many things to be thankful for! I was pleased at the outcome at NCBA convention. Everyone was able to say what they are feeling and needing and I believe the people listening on both sides may have learned something. It was good to see the compromise reached passed unanimously.
    Back in March when all this self quarantine started, I saw a meme that was perfect. “We are not all in the same boat, but we are in the same storm.” We can still support each other through this crazy time! Hang in there!

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